Moonshadow

Life happens. Some things are a direct result of choices I make. Some things are completely, absolutely and totally out of my control. Those are the things I am talking about. If I make a bad choice, well, at least I got to choose. And maybe, just maybe, the consequences will be good reminders to me to take a little more time and thought before choosing next time.

What does this have to do with anything? Well, nothing and everything, I think. That’s the other thing that I do: I think too much. I have thought about it a lot and I realize that I am going to have to think of a way to stop, thinking so much, that is.

Until I do, I have been thinking. I was listening to a song this morning as I drove around Podunk, visiting patients. You know how it is: you listen to a song about a million times and, on the million and first time you hear it, it suddenly dawns on you what it means.

Well, not so with Puff the Magic Dragon…..I’m still figuring that one out.

But I have figured out Moonshadow. I know what it means:

I’m being followed by a moonshadow, moonshadow, moonshadow.

Leaping and hopping on a moonshadow, moonshadow, moonshadow.

That’s the fun part I always remember about the song. Today, I heard the message:

Did it take long to find me, I asked the Fates polite.

Did it take long to find me, and are you gonna stay the night?

That’s the message. Fate found me. Fate made choices for me. And now I have to live with that fate. I can do a “woe is me” routine or, like the song, I can make the best of what Fate handed me.

If I ever lose my legs, I won’t moan, and I won’t beg

If I ever lose my legs, I won’t have to walk no more……

Before you scratch your head, I’m just into acceptance, that’s all. I’m not an idiot:

I will still look both ways before I cross the street.

I will lock my doors at night.

I will pay my taxes, pay my bills, pay my rent.

But I will also stop waiting for tomorrow and live today as if it is all that I have.

If I ever lose my eyes, If my colors all run dry

If I ever lose my eyes, I won’t have to cry no more…..