Rainy Day Thoughts....

I've known for a little more than two weeks that I will be having a procedure done on Thursday. I have been too busy to think about it much.

Today has been a quiet day, with gray skies. Cooler, too. Noelle has been off with her cousins having a lovely time. Inside for most of the day, it finally got to me....

I talked to a good friend yesterday. Actually, she is an RN and was making the pre-op phone call to tell me all about what will happen on Thursday. Her voice sounded familiar and my knowledge of what was going to happen piqued her interest. We realized that we worked together in the hospital OR many years ago.

I am glad she called: she says she has seen very good results from this procedure. That makes me feel better about doing it. I have never been scared about it, just cautious and concerned.

It has been a long time since I was pain-free. If this procedure can take away the pain, well, that will be great. I have decided to be positive about it; I am expecting good results. Mind over matter, as the saying goes....

I can tolerate the pain, most of the time. It's the uncertainty that has brought me to my knees a couple of times. Will I get better? Will I be able to work again? Is this how it ends? I admit that, on a cold and rainy day, such thoughts can take over and derail my positive attitude.

I decided to go to the new Hobby Lobby store that opened yesterday. I found stickers to decorate the photo journal I want to make of my trip in October. It took my mind off of Thursday....

My phone rang while I was shopping and it was my former DIL: she needed to do something and wanted to know if I could take Noelle and Mckay for awhile. I went through the checkout (50% off everything I bought!) and drove to her house to pick up the kids.

It's funny how things happen. Within five minutes of driving home with the kids in the back, they had me laughing again. Full of energy, full of ideas, and hungry, too, I drove them home to spend the evening with me.

They ate as if they hadn't eaten in days. Then they played games on the Wii for awhile. At the end, just before Jo was due back to pick up Mckay, they were playing hide and seek.....and getting under foot as I was trying to do the dishes. Oh well...

It's late now, Mckay has gone home with his mom. Noelle just came in to say “goodnight” and I sent her off to bed with a long hug. It's raining quite hard right now: I can hear it on the roof. But it isn't bothering me: I have found my happy again.

Kids do that to me.....